Sandpaper & Glass

Sorry, Not Sorry.

By: sandpaperandglass November 20, 2017

Uncategorizedconfidence, vulvodyniaLeave a Comment

Is my insecurity showing? Yes, yes it is. Sorry if I share too many details. I am not trying to be insensitive, rather the opposite. I have learned through speaking with many women who have vulvodynia, that the more honest I can be about my experiences, the better I am able to help others. I’ve…

My story. Part 1. The Early Years.

By: sandpaperandglass November 20, 2017January 13, 2018

My Story, Uncategorizedanxiety, painful intercourse, Pelvic Pain, Period pain, THINX Underwear, vulvodyniaLeave a Comment

My medical history is a long, complicated, intertwined, and emotional one. It takes me to a place of incredible vulnerability. Reliving moments of hopelessness, let-downs, and anger. For this reason, I have been putting off writing this. But as each day passes, I feel frustrated with myself for not writing it down. For not getting…

The Power of Visualization

By: sandpaperandglass November 20, 2017January 13, 2018

Uncategorizedanxiety, pelvic floor physical therapy, vaginal pain, vaginal tightness, vulvodyniaLeave a Comment

My heart aches. I yearn for him to return. He will be gone for months and months for military training and I miss him desperately. Sure, I can handle the day to day responsibilities of our family. I write him letters and it feels like I am talking with him. I know how he would…

What is in my Amazon Cart?

By: sandpaperandglass November 8, 2017January 13, 2018

Uncategorizedanxiety, judgement, Pelvic Pain, Slippery Stuff, TheraWand, vulvodyniaLeave a Comment

As open as I am about having vulvodynia, there are times when I feel incredibly self-conscious and a little embarrassed about it. Today is one of those days. I had pelvic floor PT yesterday and my physical therapist recommended a few products to order on Amazon. I got online today and added a TheraWand, a lubricant, and a book to…

First Comment…

By: sandpaperandglass November 3, 2017

Uncategorizedconfidence, vaginal pain, vulvodynia4 Comments

“What kind of weirdo, freaky exhibitionist wants to post this kind of crap? Keep it between you and your gynecologist. They get paid to hear you whine about your lady parts. Even your husband doesn’t want to read this. Ew. Just stop it.” This. This is exactly why women are afraid to be open about…

Symptoms and Effects of Vulvodynia

By: sandpaperandglass November 2, 2017

Start Here., Uncategorizedanxiety, painful intercourse, vaginal pain, vaginal tightness, vulvodynia3 Comments

Stabbing pain. Burning. Itching. Glass shards. Every step is torture. Electric shock. Raw, tearing skin. Rose thorns inside me. Extreme tightness. These are very common ways women describe what having vulvodynia feels like. I have felt: 7/9 Excruciatingly painful intercourse. Can’t sit for long periods of time. Lost my job because of it. Can’t…

The Purpose of Sandpaper and Glass

By: sandpaperandglass November 2, 2017November 3, 2017

Start Here., Uncategorizedanxiety, painful intercourse, vaginal pain, vaginal surgery, vaginal tightness, vulvodyniaLeave a Comment

I’d been contemplating starting a blog for awhile now. At least a year and a half, in some form or another. In March 2016 I had a surgery for my vulvodynia. Up until then, I had kept my condition very private. I considered it in the “don’t ask, don’t tell” category of topics. Possibly in…

Here Goes Nothing…

By: sandpaperandglass October 28, 2017January 16, 2018

Start Here., Uncategorizedanxiety, painful intercourse, vaginal pain, vestibulodynia, vulvodynia7 Comments

This is very vulnerable for me. Me, of all people. The person who has spent the past two years urging youth to be vulnerable. Yearning to foster a world of more openness, oneness, and empathy. Me, the person who will virtually tell any person our struggle if asked. Me, the person who has learned that…