Sandpaper & Glass

Re-Branding

By: sandpaperandglass April 29, 2019June 17, 2019

Uncategorizedanxiety, confidence, stress, vulvodyniaLeave a Comment

I’m stressed. I try to write but everything seems to be coming out wrong. I’m not authentic enough. I’m not knowledgeable enough. I don’t know the studies or articles to annotate this message. I want to talk about other things I am passionate about, but will I lose my following? Do I even have “a…

Tightly Wound: A Film About Vaginismus

By: sandpaperandglass March 4, 2019June 17, 2019

Uncategorizedadvocate, anxiety, depression, marriage, painful intercourse, pelvic floor physical therapy, Pelvic Pain, stress, Therapy, vaginal pain, vaginal tightness, vaginismusLeave a Comment

I recently watched this film (via the Tightly Wound Film website) and was so touched by the depth of honesty, vulnerability, creativity, and hope. Thank you so much for sharing your story with the world.

Anxiety and Over-Sharing.

By: sandpaperandglass February 26, 2019June 17, 2019

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I’ve been getting pretty in my head recently about over-sharing. Do people really want to know? Am I being weird here? Did I just ruin a potential friendship by opening up too soon? Is this person going to think I’m weak? Did I talk to them about this before? I don’t want to sound like this…

My Story. Part 7. Systemic Nickel Allergy.

By: sandpaperandglass February 11, 2019June 17, 2019

My Story, UncategorizedAllergies, Aquagenic Pruritus, itchy skin, Low Nickel Diet, Nickel Allergy, Systemic Nickel AllergyLeave a Comment

Okay, friends. I feel a little uncomfortable writing this post and I’ve been avoiding it for months. Why, you ask? Because even though this is a part of my story, I am still trying to figure it out. Let me explain… If you haven’t read my previous post about my skin issues, you can check it out here.…

Finding a Doctor

By: sandpaperandglass February 4, 2019June 17, 2019

Uncategorizedadvocate, GYN, OBGYN, vaginal pain, vulvodyniaLeave a Comment

Image from @peacewithpain I’ve touched on this before… how I was dismissed by multiple doctors and told that I just needed to relax or “it will get better.” I learned to mask my pain with humor at GYN appointments. I learned to cry silently while they did the pap smear or pregnancy checks. I didn’t…

My Story. Part 6. Anxiety.

By: sandpaperandglass February 3, 2019June 17, 2019

My Story, Uncategorizedanxiety, depression, empath, marriage, Pelvic Pain, stress, Therapy, vulvodynia1 Comment

As you know, I have anxiety. I had dealt with it for a long time before knowing what it truly was. I always blamed other things for why I was so anxious all the time. I have a lot on my plate. I didn’t sleep well last night. Financial stress. Twins…. need I say more?…

Excellent Video: I Have A Condition That Makes Sex Painful

By: sandpaperandglass January 13, 2019June 17, 2019

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I adore this video.

Awesome Video: When You Can’t Have Sex

By: sandpaperandglass January 13, 2019

Uncategorizedanxiety, depression, Pelvic Pain, vaginal pain, vaginal tightnessLeave a Comment

I literally cried when I watched this video for the first time. And, to be honest, I feel kind of vulnerable sharing this with you. Because Lara Parker (the main girl in the video, who legit has these conditions) does an excellent job showing what it is really like to have vaginal pain. The anxiety…

Space and Grace.

By: sandpaperandglass November 1, 2018June 17, 2019

Uncategorizedanxiety, depression, Pelvic Pain, Therapy, vulvodyniaLeave a Comment

I’ve just returned to this blog from a 6-ish-month hiatus. I left without a warning, stopped responding to the blog e-mails, etc. And I am sorry for that. I hope each person who needed help was able to find it while I was away. I am going to be vulnerable in this post. Not with…

My Story. Part 5. Healing through PT.

By: sandpaperandglass October 11, 2018June 17, 2019

My Story, Uncategorizedanxiety, incontinence, pelvic floor physical therapy, Pelvic Pain, vaginal pain, vaginal tightness, vulvodyniaLeave a Comment

This is one of those posts that has taken me FOR.EVER. to want to write. I did a lot of soul searching and realized why. This is me currently. This isn’t my medical history… which is easily summarized… this is the active, messy journey that I’m on. I have anxiety about being criticized, being wrong,…