Anxiety, Avoidance, and Accountability

Heyyyyy. It’s been a while. And despite the fact that I have so many things I want to say and to share, I haven’t been able to bring myself to post them here. I have been feeling a burst of anxiety again these past few weeks. It sucks. Today is particularly anxiety-filled. I’ve been working…

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Lots and Lots and Lots of Thoughts: Diet/Wellness Culture.

I really love this article. I blogged about it a few days ago, but I have more thoughts. In case the linked text above doesn’t work, here it is to copy and paste: https://www.nytimes.com/2019/06/08/opinion/sunday/women-dieting-wellness.html?fbclid=IwAR0EpMQf49Sw2AVSfuskVKiJVkDSqGgNALDnwV_ejU_dbAmJiHfnVUwOp-w “The diet industry is a virus, and viruses are smart. It has survived all these decades by adapting, but it’s as…

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Step Away From Diet Culture, Love.

The New York Times Article: Smash the Wellness Industry I’ve seen this article (link above, read it!) circulating on my @sandpaper.and.glass Instagram feed. I follow a very curated group of people including Intuitive Eating Nutritionists/Dietitians. Body Positivity and Health at Every Size Influencers. I am grateful that they share such powerful, relatable content. A friend…

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Broken.

“I don’t think you’re as broken as you think you are…” My previous therapist said this to me a year ago, and it was a revelation. A huge weight lifted off my chest. Maybe she is right– maybe I’m not broken. This is one of the shame tapes that runs through my head often. “I’m…

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Re-Branding

I’m stressed. I try to write but everything seems to be coming out wrong. I’m not authentic enough. I’m not knowledgeable enough. I don’t know the studies or articles to annotate this message. I want to talk about other things I am passionate about, but will I lose my following? Do I even have “a…

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Tightly Wound: A Film About Vaginismus

I recently watched this film (via the Tightly Wound Film website) and was so touched by the depth of honesty, vulnerability, creativity, and hope. Thank you so much for sharing your story with the world.

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Anxiety and Over-Sharing.

I’ve been getting pretty in my head recently about over-sharing. Do people really want to know? Am I being weird here? Did I just ruin a potential friendship by opening up too soon? Is this person going to think I’m weak? Did I talk to them about this before? I don’t want to sound like this…

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My Story. Part 7. Systemic Nickel Allergy.

Okay, friends. I feel a little uncomfortable writing this post and I’ve been avoiding it for months. Why, you ask? Because even though this is a part of my story, I am still trying to figure it out. Let me explain… If you haven’t read my previous post about my skin issues, you can check it out here.…

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Finding a Doctor

Image from @peacewithpain I’ve touched on this before… how I was dismissed by multiple doctors and told that I just needed to relax or “it will get better.” I learned to mask my pain with humor at GYN appointments. I learned to cry silently while they did the pap smear or pregnancy checks. I didn’t…

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My Story. Part 6. Anxiety.

As you know, I have anxiety. I had dealt with it for a long time before knowing what it truly was. I always blamed other things for why I was so anxious all the time. I have a lot on my plate. I didn’t sleep well last night. Financial stress. Twins…. need I say more?…

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