I’m stressed.

I try to write but everything seems to be coming out wrong.

I’m not authentic enough. I’m not knowledgeable enough. I don’t know the studies or articles to annotate this message. I want to talk about other things I am passionate about, but will I lose my following? Do I even have “a following?”

Why am I special? The truth is I’m not. And this isn’t me degrading myself or downplaying my abilities. My experience is not rare. Vulvodynia is not rare. I just choose to talk about it.

But in talking about it there is great fear. And I’ve been feeling that a lot lately. Especially after creating my Instagram account, I’ve pressured myself to come up with regular content.

And that has made me realize something. I have a lot to say. I have a lot to say on a lot of topics and I am trying to find my voice for them. I think I may go through a bit of a “re-branding.” Currently my blog and Insta are focused on the physical, emotional, and relational effects of vulvodynia. And as much as I want to share and talk about that… often I sit down to write a post and I find my mind is occupied with other subjects.

When I try to push those thoughts aside to focus on writing about my V, I feel disingenuous. So I’ve made up my mind. I am going to speak/write my mind. And I will try to categorize things well enough so you, as the reader, can choose which content you want to follow.